you gotta be kind to yourself

semester report! well not everything went as planned... i did really well all semester then at the very end my work for design class fell apart and thing got awful and dramatic and i worked for 36 hours without stopping, and...it was just...bad. anyway, as of thursday i am done for the year, so friday sister and i hopped in edie and popped over to memphis for a graduation and some much needed fun. i haven't really seen anyone since school started...so...ya know...hooray.

also a big part if it for me was a)needing to be around friends to get myself back to being myself, and b) needing a distraction from my scholarly identity crisis.

i feel as though who i am has been asleep for the last few months and i'm just waking up. it's mostly just because I've been busy and adjusting and stressed, but i think also never having a moment that was my own. so. this next semester i am going to actively try to make my life happier by making sure to listen to a happy cd every day, and to make sure to eat right, exercise and wake up early (i'm just happier when i do), and most importantly make sure that every day i make at least 10 minutes my own, by myself... even if it's just sitting drinking a cup of tea and looking out the window.

so. resolutions resolutions.

thanks to a grand old pal and his enheartening words of wisdom, my "i have no talent i'm terrible why do i even try" crisis is over... and i've moved on to the good old mid-western "get there through hard work and perserverance and grit" mindset i love so much. and i will (as against my true nature as it really is) try to stop beating my mind up for every mistake made and every failure and every little thing that wasn't the very best. sometimes we slip and fall, and i suppose thats what makes not falling so beautiful... but i'm going to start being kinder to myself.