Thursday, April 22, 2010

why am i upset about this?

well. i'm just not sure why i'm upset about this.


my formal dress is too big. my formal dress which fit in january is now falling off me.

normally i'd be all "yay" but i need it for saturday night!


anyway i just thought that was a funny thing for me to be upset about. so i thought i'd share.
i figure i've got two options: eat a whole wedding cake and a flock of sandwiches before then... or get a different dress. or a fairy godmother. so three.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

ohh

i gotta stop offering to do things for people!


:/

Thursday, April 15, 2010

things i like

which of the listed items is a thing beatrice likes?

a. pre-rehearsal picnics on the grassy median with jenny (where, by the way, i got my first sunburn of the summer. ! )

b. little girls on swings

c. wearing mixed prints to a "the notebook" watching party... which dear summer only let me come to if i promised not to mock the movie. don't tell her but i did. in my heart. it's just so silly! i mean really... people don't just die at the same time because they're in love.


d. the accumulated nerdiness of dan and caitlin and me.


e. pancake making parties with emily! (yes that is a delicious raspberry sauce on that pancake. and yes, that is a banana pancake.)


f. all of the above!

Monday, April 12, 2010

this is only slightly a rant

ok. let me just say. i don't like to use this space as a ranting space... it's not a nice thing to do. its better to use your shower as a ranting space, or your car, or your long-suffering and ever-supportively-dear co-star's ear. these are all places which are acceptable as ranting spaces. not blogs. blogging a rant is like saying ... hey... i'm upset, therefore the whole world should be too, cause i'm just. that. important. no no no. that is why this is purposefully not a rant. it is a rasson. a rant/lesson, because i've learned from this little experience.


you know how mla formatting says we must always preface our writings by stating our point bluntly and without art? ok. here goes.

people should be more thankful. more grateful. less mean. less unfeeling. more CHRISTLIKE.

today i was at Jake's picking up hamburgers for my mom and me, and after sitting in (and being cut in front of in) the drive thru lane for 15 minutes, decided to just go in. on coming out, crossing the parking lot, i saw a guy and his little kids walking across the parking lot too, but the guy was so consumed with his cell-phone he didn't realize that his 5 year old daughter was about to be run over by a truck. i ran over and pulled her out of the way in time (i don't say this to brag, i say it because...wait for iiittt) and the man pocketed his iphone just in time to see me pull her out of the street... and so he comes over, and ... oh. ok. starts cussing me out.

really?

really?!?

i would write out the conversation here, except that his part of it was about 50% swearing. the gist of it was,

what do you think you're doing, stupid lady
just keeping your daughter from getting killed, thats all
well you shouldn't, woman, it's none of your business
it has to be someone's business if her father is ignoring the fact that she is about to get run over
well i'm her father, i should be the one making that call
yeah, that's what i'm saying, you SHOULD be
go away, stupid, zip your face.


yeah, you're welcome.

i just really don't think that people should get berated for doing something nice for someone, especially not by the person they did it for. so here's what i'm going to do. i'm going to start recognizing the little things people do that are nice more often.

gratefulness is a wonderful thing. i started this out just now, by saying thanks to my aforementioned ever-supportive-co-star because he was something of a lifesaver in rehearsal today, when i was freaking out about not knowing one of our dance numbers, he grabbed my shoulders and looked me in the eyes and said "hey you. we've got this. we're gonna be great." and though it seems like such a small, simple thing, it was exactly what i needed to hear, so bless the people like that.

so if someone does something nice for you,

DON'T:
yell at them
call them names
criticize the way they did it
cuss them out
talk about them behind their back

DO:
give them cookies
say thank you
write them a note
smile at them
hug them (if it's someone you know =) awkward potential there)
put a note on their windshield wiper
give them more cookies

remember in Mark 14, when Mary poured the precious ointment on Jesus' feet? Judas objected, criticizing the way she was serving God, saying it should be sold, and the money given to the poor... but Jesus saw the blessing of servanthood in her gift.

He said "She hath done what she could."

do what you can. and don't bring down people who are trying to do what they can.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

moriah

here's a painting i did recently of a little girl named moriah
who has the sweetest eyes and heart
in the world.

Monday, April 05, 2010

mori girl


ohhh my.

my sister and i are currently obsessed with the japanese style sub-culture, Mori Girl.

mori means forest or woodland in japanese... so, forest girl. ohh my. they dress like sprites!

morigirl.blogspot.com should give you an idea of it.

Friday, April 02, 2010

PORTRAITURE FAIL!

... Because picture fails rock my world. Especially if I'm the failer.


"You're too tall! Bend your knees so I can see the sign!"
"Uhhh... ok."
"Oh, now you look like ... cowhands."

Uhh. Yeah. Awesome.

"I can beez mad achoo nowz. i can haz scowlz."

"OOOH! fish! I can haz feeeeeesh!"

Yes. We took Caroline's pictures in
Saudia
Arabia.


hahahahaha

Senior Picture Shoot # 3!

Yesterday I shot my dearie Emily's senior pictures at the Arboretum and Whiterock lake

They were a picture win!



Afterwards? crabcakes and rich dessert at ST Cafe!

And a quick stop by the Janie Christy school of dance, our ballet alma mater! not that we... graduated... or anything. It was so fun to see the tulle skirts and pink hallways again! Brought back those memories, for sure!

Thursday, April 01, 2010

absence

i know i've been spastic all spring. seriously... SO sporadic. it's been a very up and down year so far, i've kind of been jumping between extremes of joy and depression, and it's about time things settled out to a steady constant rate of extremely happy. =)


i don't really want to talk about the reason, some things are too personal to send out into the void. i'll just say that it involved a fellow and then not a fellow anymore, and that is an end to that because truly, i am past it now.

things are settling out now - i am near set for next semester, and my life - against all odds - seems to be returning to some odd form of normalcy. i say against all odds because i'm in my last month of school, my play, Pride and Prejudice, is opening in 4 weeks and ... stress stress lines to memorize stress stress ... and there are so many other responsibilities and deadlines weighing on me now i won't burden you with a horrid list of them.

i suppose what i'm saying is that i don't write when my emotional life is upside down, and now that things are coming back around to stability i'm... almost back. but oh so busy. a lot of it is my relationships in the cast have really grown strong, and it really helps with the not feeling stable thing. and OH SO MUCH of it is this amazing Saviour i have, who is always the same, and has always loved me with a deeply personal, unchangeable Love.

i'll be around. april is warm, and the trees are in bloom.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

yuck yuck yuck

allergies.



oh ugh. i just feel... ugh. no energy atall, no nothing. sore throat and kleenex and achy yuckness.

blah. to everyone and anyone who has spring allergies like me - I'M SO SORRY! we're in a special not fun club and its totally blah.